Misery Missing...

Dear...
Missing you
but couldn't say anything..
Loving you
but we can't be together..
Caring you
but u won't be mine..

I love the kisses...
I miss the hugs...
& hunger of the touches...

What can I do is only keep the feeling tightly..
deep inside in my heart..
Whoever you are..Wherever I am..Whenever we are..
You are alwiz in my mind..
As my inspiration..my sifoo..my lover..
Wishing you for great happinness forever..

Lots of Love..

Love in guiltness

Dear...

Nov 21st, Fri - The first kiss...
Quite shock but i can't describe the feelings..
I tot it was the last but it just the beginning of our complicated feelings..

Start from the day, we need about 1 - 2 weeks to control ourself..

Today -
We did feel the same but still under control (eventhough not 100%)..

Dear...
I miss you but I hate myself because of this feeling.
I just wonder how can we both drop in this trap
Yeah..playing scandals
I believe this is the most stupid thing that i ever did

I wish to throw the feeling without any regret
I wish to forget the moments without hurting anyone (specially myself)
I wish to right the things with the right way
May Allah help us to stop all this...
Amin...

SA dear

sa dear..

i miss u...
miss u so much...
do u feel the same?

dear..
i wish to talk with you..
wish to share everything with you
even though u r not mine...

The words that i couldnt say to you..

Dear My Big Bro...

Sorry for still missing you..
i did try to control myself
really strugle for it until now

On the day we went out together (last monday)
i never plan for it
but really appreciate for every single thing u have done
wiling to acompany me..waiting for me..& hav a lunch with me
during the day, i keep talking to myself
ask me to behave..don't ever shows my actual feeling..
in other word, acting!
yeah..i did it

Until yesterday, i tot i've manage to "cleanup my disk"
but actually i cant
i was thinking of someone else but accidently calling your name
i've tried few times but again, still saying your name
Sorry bro...

My dear bro..
always praying for you
wish a guidance & blessing for you
eventhough we are not meant together
but really wish to be your sister in Islam
May Allah bless you with happily life in dunia & akhirat
Take care my dear bro..

SORRY..

sorry for still keep this feeling..
sorry for missing u..

Beraya di office..

Hari ni raye ke-3 but aku dah masuk office.
Semuanye lengang...parking umah aku..jalanraya..office..
Best nye kalo tiap2 ari camni.
Tapi office aku pn lengang gak..(yg ni x best)..
huhu..

I'm Struggling

Bro dear..
I'm struggling now..
could you help me?...
at least for the last time...
please...
:'(