Love in guiltness

Dear...

Nov 21st, Fri - The first kiss...
Quite shock but i can't describe the feelings..
I tot it was the last but it just the beginning of our complicated feelings..

Start from the day, we need about 1 - 2 weeks to control ourself..

Today -
We did feel the same but still under control (eventhough not 100%)..

Dear...
I miss you but I hate myself because of this feeling.
I just wonder how can we both drop in this trap
Yeah..playing scandals
I believe this is the most stupid thing that i ever did

I wish to throw the feeling without any regret
I wish to forget the moments without hurting anyone (specially myself)
I wish to right the things with the right way
May Allah help us to stop all this...
Amin...