My SweetDream.. Good Bye Dear..

Ya Allah..
Dengan nama Mu yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasih..
Hanya Engkau tempat aku memohon dan mengadu..
Hanya Engkau yang sangat mengerti segala isi hati kami..
Semoga Engkau sentiasa melindungi kami dari segala kemungkaran, Ya Allah...

Dalam keizinan-Mu, aku titipkan sebahagian perbualan kami.
Semoga ini menjadi peringatan kepada ku
dan juga sebagai tanda kenangan kepada sebuah persahabatan bersulam secebis perasaan...

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ct says:
i baru perasan..lately ni i tak brape cakap dengan u
ct says:
kat ofis

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
bab i pun selalu kat training room,
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sebenarnye i free hari ni, nak bukak puasa ngan siti,
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tu sebab i ade kat sini mlm ni,
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esok mlm i kena pergi tempat makcik lak,

ct says:
ic..
ct says:
actually, sometimes i memang purposely avoid to talk much with u

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
so sorry siti
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nape?

ct says:
sebab i teringat, u dah nak kawen..
ct says:
so i takut nanti i susahkan u
ct says:
or kacau u

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
it's ok

ct says:
sebab tu la i prefer x cakap banyak
ct says:
tp kadang2 i rindu kat u
ct says:
yang ni, i pun confuse

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
i pun rindu kat siti jugak
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
yg penting, perjuangan kita adalah sama

ct says:
camne ni ahking..u tak leh rindu kat i la..

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
kekadang, bukan semestinye tak kata bermaksud tak rindu,,,

ct says:
ahking dear..

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
ye sayang?

ct says:
what do u expect frm me?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
sebenarye i tak expect ape2 dari siti
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
siti pun da tunang,
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
i pun da tunang
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2 dunia yg berlainan, tapi 1 perjuangan

ct says:
ok good
ct says:
alhamdulilLah

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
nape? siti risau?

ct says:
tipu la kalo tak risau langsung

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
risau tentang?

ct says:
risau kalau ade yang tersalah paham bile terbace kita nyer conversation

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tunang siti ade baca?

ct says:
so far, takde la..

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tapi gf tak baca, bab dia lebih suka guna laptop dia
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tapi i pun make sure i taksimpan conversation

ct says:
ntah la ahking..i suka kawan dgn u..
ct says:
suka sangat..

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
me too

ct says:
tapi
ct says:
makin u nak kawen, i rase makin bersalah

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
kerana Tuhan ada bagi petanda...
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kekadang, Tuhan akan tolong kita sekiranye kita tersesat

ct says:
a sign for us to stop?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
mungkin

ct says:
i wish too
ct says:
but feel hard to let it go
ct says:
pls advice...

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
la....pls advice, da berbunyi cam tu si yuki
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hehehe
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
anyways
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
we just simpan dlm hati kita
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tu aje
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
kekadang i pun termimpikan siti
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tapi....munking ini adalah ujian dari Dia
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tu make sure kita selalu berjaga jaga selalu

ct says:
terus terang i cakap..
ct says:
ade mase, i miss u..so much

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
i faham
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sebab i pun feeling camtu

ct says:
tapi i takut kalo perasaan ni still ade walaupun u dah kawen
ct says:
i tak faham knape i ade prasaan camni

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
perasaan ni,
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it's apa yg kita panggil infatuation
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
oklah, kalau let say
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i ngan u,
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kita dua2 lepaskan apa yg kita ade skang
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
dan bersama....
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adakah kita betul akan gembira,
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kalau compare ngan pengorbanan kita?

ct says:
i'm not sure
ct says:
mybe not
ct says:
coz kte akan rase bsalah dgn other party

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tu lah dia sayang
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dan juga keluarga i,
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
keluarga siti
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
i pernah fikir tentang ni dulu, siti,
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
bukan kali pertama
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dan pengorbanan dan kepedihan hati kalau berbanding ngan perasaan "suka kejap",
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adalah terlalu besar

ct says:
in other words, we shud stop rite?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
ye...

ct says:
ok

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kita letakkan Tuhan di atas kita, siti
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atas semua benda
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dan dengar kata2 Tuhan
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sebab dalam diri kita,insan biasa ada kelemahan
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
sorry siti....I'm so so sorry

ct says:
sorry for?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
for cakap camni....
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
bab sebenarnye, i pun tak tahu apa yg patut i cakap atau buat utk buatkan kita rasa gembira balik

ct says:
what do u mean .."i pun tak tahu apa yg patut i cakap atau buat utk buatkan kita rasa gembira balik".. ?
ct says:
jangan rase bersalah cakap pasal kenyataan
ct says:
walaupun pahit, maybe that is the best

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
so sorry siti

ct says:
bile u cakap sorry, i rase macam its caused by me

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
takde siti

ct says:
ye la..mungkin kot

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
it's notcaused by u
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saya pun bersalah
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saya selalu panggil siti sayang sayang
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
I'm sorry too
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
siti?

ct says:
yes?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
kenapa siti diam?

ct says:
sebab rasa bersalah kot

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
siti tak salah

ct says:
i did the same thing
ct says:
at 1st, i did 4 fun..but sometimes, i mean it
ct says:
i'm so sorry//

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
saya pun....
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
it's ok siti....I'm sorry too
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
jgnla sedih tentang ni siti

ct says:
the feeling is still there..now thinking of how to cleanup the disk..

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
disk cleanup boleh punye, hanye lama
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tapi jgn format la...

ct says:
takut ade bad sector je
ct says:
takpe la..
ct says:
at least kte dah berterus terang

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
actually, i memang all the while i terus terang,
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
i memang confess, i suka kat siti
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tapi i tau i tak boleh bersama ngan siti

ct says:
u know the different between minat, suka, sayang & cinta?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
skit2 aje
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
munking siti boleh beritau sikit?

ct says:
ntah la..
ct says:
bagi i..minat is for someone yg kte admire
ct says:
org yg ade ape yg kte suka
ct says:
suka, org yg kte happy bile dengan dia
ct says:
rase senang, selesa..
ct says:
sayang, orang yang kte care..
ct says:
amik berat sangat.. &kte maybe susah hati bile dia susah
ct says:
cinta, susah nak explain..
ct says:
org kata, cinta agung, hanya untuk Allah

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
then, category i ngan siti adalah?

ct says:
i tak tau camne u define i

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
tapi camna siti define i?

ct says:
but for me, i minat, suka & sayang u

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
same here siti

ct says:
but since dah sampai level sayang, tu yang buat i start risau
ct says:
maka, terjadi lah perbualan ni..

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
mit's ok

ct says:
& i'm so sorry for that

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
it's ok
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
jgn rasa camni siti
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
it's ok

ct says:
jgn rase ape?

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
jgn rase sedih siti,
An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
please
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bab i still do care for your feelings

ct says:
thanks

An apple a day keeps the BillGates away... says:
you are welcome

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(That's how my sweetdream is over tonight..

From bottom of my heart, really miss him so much..)

Ya Allah..

Berkatilah perpisahan ini..semoga apa yang aku lakukan ini ikhlas kerana Mu

Mulai detik ini, izinkan aku untuk melenyapkan perasaan ini selagi mana ia terlarang

Tabahkan hati hamba mu ini Ya Allah...

Semoga antara kami masih tetap sebagai sahabat kerana Mu

Ya Allah..

aku serahkan segalanya pada Mu

Andai dia bukan untuk ku, kurniakanlah kami teman yang lebih baik

Semoga Engkau kurniakan petunjuk & hidayah Mu untuk dia dan keluarganya.

Semoga dia tergolong dalam orang2 beriman & taat kepada Mu...